Yup, one step closer..
Now, I’m doing my revision for my thesis.. This revision is still
for my first supervisor.. Actually, she is a pretty kind woman, but I want to
share it from the beginning of the story..
On that day of the announcement, I received the SK of the
supervisors -lecturers who have responsibility to supervise our thesis- I
rather felt surprised, because my first supervisor is actually not come from my
field of study, psycholinguistics.. I did not underestimate her, because she is
already a master of art in a well-known university in London.. So, I was trying
to erase all those doubt into a belief that she will supervise me with all of
her efforts.. At least, until my last meeting with her, I knew that she has
very broad knowledge in error analysis.. If not, I won't be very desperate to
do her suggestion to my thesis.. Hehe..
She is very kind, too.. However a few students consider that she
is strict and perfectionist lecturer.. Well, for this opinion, it depends on
their own.. One thing for sure, I believe that these characteristics make her
smart and success.. It can be seen from my own experience, that we should have
meeting to discuss my thesis just once in a week.. My dear lecturer, I don't
want to waste my time any longer.. At first, I just a little bit broken to face
it, while my friends are always go further with their supervisors.. Again, this
gives me so much feeling of sad.. It’s not because I am not happy with their
thesis progress but it's more a kind of feeling left behind.. Why people are so
lucky to make their plans and as if these plans want to follow them as smooth
as they want...?? some of them has finished with their first supervisor and go
on to the second supervisor, some of them are already finished with both supervisors,
some of them has registered for the thesis exam and some of them has graduated
on this November... I wonder why this hard situation could happen to me... Am i
lazy or stupid?? God, I am sick of this feeling...
Lately, I know that I have many friends to support me to move
forward, not to defend on this silly situation, keep thinking and thinking
instead doing a thing... they support me with a powerful sentence,
"everything will be right in time".. Yup, Allah has a wonderful plan
with me... everyone has their own path, their own faith... and I have no right
to protest it.. The only way, I have to go through this path with a belief that
everything has been planned by the One..
Like I said in the beginning, just one step closer to ACC
(acceded) by my first supervisor.. She said that my thesis almost done, just
need another one meeting.. Hope that everything will run well, and Allah never leaves
me, never let me down.. I also wish that my best friends keep supporting me...
wish me luck, dude...!!
