Ost. Crazy Little Thing Called Love

I don't know how much longer that I have to endure

I've been hiding everything in my heart

Everytime we meet

Everytime we face each other

Do you know how much I have to force my self?

Can you hear that?

Can't you hear my heart calling for you, loving you

But I cannot reveal my true feelings to anyone

Can you hear that?

Waiting for you to feel it

I was hoping that you will realize someday

Though I love you

Though I feel your love

But deep down inside 

I can't dare to tell you

Though I am indifferent

Do you know how much I have to force my self?

Can you hear that?

But I cannot reveal my true feelings to anyone

Waiting for you to feel it

I was hoping that you will realize someday

Can you hear that?

My heart is telling you I love you

But I cannot reveal my true feelings to anyone

Can you hear that?

My heart is still waiting for you to feel it

I can only hope you will know it

That I'm here to love you

Anyway, someday you will know

Can you hear that?

My heart is telling you I love you

But I cannot reveal my true feelings to anyone

Can you hear that?

My heart is still waiting there for you to open

And I can only hope you will know it

That I'm just here to love you

I'm begging you to please know it

Someday someday

Proceed to 2nd Supervisor

Alhamdulillaahirabbil'alamiin..
Hanya kata ini yang terucap ketika beliau menorehkan tinta hitamnya di sudut kanan atas halaman depan skripsi ku...

Thank you so much, ma'am..
Finally, i could get those magical words from you.. This was a long journey of mine, since September 22nd 2011, the first time I discussed my thesis with you as my first supervisor.. Like I said in the previous post, only need another one meeting, then she would accede my thesis as well.. She was not lie.. At December 5th 2011, i got a ticket to my second supervisor.. Ya Rabb, this is really a blessing particularly i had fasting day for 9 Muharram.. There was no words coming out from my mouth, there was no tears to express it.. I just couldn't know how to express it since i know this was a really a hard journey.. Now, i get ready to face my second supervisor.. He is really mastered in Psycholinguistics and that's why i have a reason to be afraid with him more than the former.. I wish this is only my unreasonable fear...

*Best of luck to all my friends who have thesis examination on this month.. Especially my BFF Chatrine 'kak e' Yaniarti examination comes soon due to Thursday... I wish that day will be 'your day', dear... =)

semua akan indah pada waktunya

Yup, one step closer..

Now, I’m doing my revision for my thesis.. This revision is still for my first supervisor.. Actually, she is a pretty kind woman, but I want to share it from the beginning of the story..

On that day of the announcement, I received the SK of the supervisors -lecturers who have responsibility to supervise our thesis- I rather felt surprised, because my first supervisor is actually not come from my field of study, psycholinguistics.. I did not underestimate her, because she is already a master of art in a well-known university in London.. So, I was trying to erase all those doubt into a belief that she will supervise me with all of her efforts.. At least, until my last meeting with her, I knew that she has very broad knowledge in error analysis.. If not, I won't be very desperate to do her suggestion to my thesis.. Hehe.. 

She is very kind, too.. However a few students consider that she is strict and perfectionist lecturer.. Well, for this opinion, it depends on their own.. One thing for sure, I believe that these characteristics make her smart and success.. It can be seen from my own experience, that we should have meeting to discuss my thesis just once in a week.. My dear lecturer, I don't want to waste my time any longer.. At first, I just a little bit broken to face it, while my friends are always go further with their supervisors.. Again, this gives me so much feeling of sad.. It’s not because I am not happy with their thesis progress but it's more a kind of feeling left behind.. Why people are so lucky to make their plans and as if these plans want to follow them as smooth as they want...?? some of them has finished with their first supervisor and go on to the second supervisor, some of them are already finished with both supervisors, some of them has registered for the thesis exam and some of them has graduated on this November... I wonder why this hard situation could happen to me... Am i lazy or stupid?? God, I am sick of this feeling...

Lately, I know that I have many friends to support me to move forward, not to defend on this silly situation, keep thinking and thinking instead doing a thing... they support me with a powerful sentence, "everything will be right in time".. Yup, Allah has a wonderful plan with me... everyone has their own path, their own faith... and I have no right to protest it.. The only way, I have to go through this path with a belief that everything has been planned by the One.. 

Like I said in the beginning, just one step closer to ACC (acceded) by my first supervisor.. She said that my thesis almost done, just need another one meeting.. Hope that everything will run well, and Allah never leaves me, never let me down.. I also wish that my best friends keep supporting me... wish me luck, dude...!! 

Breathe

by. Taylor Swift
Songwriters: Caillat, Colbie; Swift, Taylor Alison;

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

sudah berakhir

Sudah cukup ku tanam benih cinta ini

Tapi tak kau siangi

Sudah cukup ku rawat perasaan ini

Tapi tak kau hiraukan

Sekarang,, cukuplah aku membunuh perasaan yang layu ini

Karena pun kau tak akan peduli..

Selamat tinggal..

June 19, 2010

aku mencintaimu, ayah

gurat letih terlukis jelas diwajahmu
mencari nafkah untuk sesuap nasi
senyum diwajahmu tak pernah pudar
memberikan kenyamanan pada anak-anakmu

aku tak menjumpaimu saat pagi
karena kau sudah berangkat ketika aku bangun
aku tak menjumpaimu saat malam
karena kau terlalu lama pulang

aku tau kau mencintai kami dalam diammu
dengan semua jerih payahmu
tapi satu hal yang pasti
aku mencintaimu ayah

padang, 10 nov 2009 10.52 pm
kos kamar 10

Kekasih Sejati

by Monita

aku yang memikirkan
namun aku tak banyak berharap
kau membuat waktuku
tersita dengan angan tentangmu
*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net
mencoba lupakan
tapi ku tak bisa
mengapa begini

reff:
oh mungkin aku bermimpi menginginkan dirimu
untuk ada di sini menemaniku
oh mungkinkah kau yang jadi kekasih sejatiku
semoga tak sekedar harapku

ku coba lupakan
tapi ku tak bisa
mengapa begini

repeat reff

bila kau tlah menjadi milikku
aku takkan menyesal kelak
telah jatuh hati

repeat reff

semoga tak sekedar harapku